Bout damn time I updated this thing huh...

This is to my good friend chad... I am through being mediator. I've done nothing but cause problems and hurt you, which I never meant to do. tonight, you and me settled things, and if you ever want advice, I'll always be willing to give it to you, but now it's up to you two to talk to eachother, or do whatever you two feel you need to do. I will still uphold my promise that I made to you tonight, but I won't "mediate" for you two anymore. your sister was right, chad, I don't want to leave high school on bad terms with anyone; and besides, you're too good of a friend to me for me to fuck it all up over one stupid person...And then to everyone else...I was suprised about tonight's jazz band concert, it went better than expected. my combo sucked, and I broke one of the cardinal rules about performing on stage, DON'T SHOW ANYONE IN THE AUDIENCE YOUR DISAPPROVAL OF ANYTHING! I got pissed off after we stopped playing, damn it was such a mess. It went ok for most of it, but the ending sucked complete and utter ass, but I shouldn't have showed off my anger. Everything else was a lot better than expected, so my last high school jazz band concert was pretty good. Damn, I'm gonna miss that band...

Questions

" I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.Ask me anything you want. Really. I'll answer anything.Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything."

another great saturday night.

So, on saturday night, Me, Alina, Ryan, Heather, and Greg went out. We went to Max and Erma's to eat dinner, which was fun. Then we went to the Fifth Quarter to see Freddy play. I took my soprano sax so I could play a couple tunes with him. Freddy got there about 20 minutes after we did. He came up and talked to us for a little bit, then he went to play. He started with "Imagine", and while he played it, Alina and I, and Ryan and Heather got up and danced. It was so nice, I didn't want it to end. But it did, and after he got done with that song, he played an up-beat tune, so we sat down. A few songs later, I got up with him and played Take the "A" Train for Ryan and Heather, and then I played "Lady in Red" for Alina. After that, we had to leave, damn curfew. But, it was another great saturday night, I can't wait to have more like it.

every once in a while, even the most simple person will say something profound...

DougP1986: i'm tired of being rightDaveT19: don't ever be tired of being right. you know what you're talking about, and it shows. if someone doesn't believe you're right, let them prove you wrong. but in john's case, he hasn't done that yet. you've been right on almost everything you've said to him about this. no, dont' be tired of being rightDougP1986: that hit my heart, patDougP1986: honestlyDaveT19: every once in a while, even the most imple person will say something profoundDaveT19: *simpleDougP1986: i imed him this. he hasn't responded:DougP1986: DougP1986: you have a lot of balls to tell farmers, amish people, and people in general that their simple lives are wasted. buddha led an extremely simple life and he became enlightened, something both of us will never become. your philosophy is mine, the will to power, but people can become something while living a simple lifeDaveT19: he needs to realize that anyone can be happy, no matter how simple their lives areDaveT19: if they're happy, what the fuck else matters? I think they've done their duty if they're happy; shit, even a homeless guy can be happy, despite popular befliefDaveT19: geof, you're a profound person, you really are. sure, you can be dick sometimes, but who's not? that's human nature. you know you're right, and you're not afraid to say it. I have a lot of respect for you for being able to do that...plus a little envyDaveT19: *geoffDougP1986: hahaha, thanks man. that really means a lot.DougP1986: i wish i could hold back being pissed off like you doDaveT19: heh well I get a lot of practice on that partDougP1986: hahahaDaveT19: but no matter how pissed off I get at you, I can't begin to thank you for all tyhe times you've been there to talk to me about anything, or to go to waterfront park, or the skate park; I'm really gonna miss thatDougP1986: me tooSure he pisses me off sometimes. But he's a good friend to me, and I try to be a good friend to him...DaveT19: he wants her back I know itDougP1986: yep!DaveT19: and he won't stop until he gets her backDaveT19: but putting himself, and her through hellDaveT19: *byDaveT19: I know his plan, it's been the same thing for the past two years. GET MIKI BACK! and he doesn't stray form that. he said this exact thing last time they broke up and what happened? they went back out and he got hurt again. even I know when to quit on things like this. I don't waste my time being hurt, not anymore. I did that for 7months, and that was plenty for me. he needs to realize what he's doing, and I don't think he's done that yet. he needs TIME, and nothing else but that. time away from her, from the thought of her. he needs to experience life WITHOUT HER, and he doesn't know how to do that. there's nothing wrong with that, but he needs to try, and realize that we're trying to help him, but if he doesn't want our help, fuck him. he can deal with it his own childish wayDougP1986: paraphrased: don't cryDaveT19: hahah yeah basicallyDougP1986: it's sickening, patDaveT19: I know geoffDaveT19: she's put john through hell, and she'll get hers one day, I hope it's just as bad as what she did to johnDaveT19: aka KARMA'S A BITCHYou know, I'm not right very often, but this time, I know I'm right. I want to help john with this, but he obviously doesn't want it. He has this path he wants to go down. Well, he's going to get hurt if he goes down that path, and I think he'll regret it later on down the road. I hope he takes our hope, we have the best of intentions for him...

More College shit

Well, I've finally made a decision on where I'm going to college. Next fall I will be attending Morehead State University, not the Uiversity of Tennessee. UT decided to put me on a waiting list of about 10,000 students, saying that they would get back to me by July 1st, 2004. What a load of crap, but whatever they want, I guess. They also gave me only $4000 in scholarship. Which is flattering, don't get me wrong, but it's not nearly enough.Morehead, on the other hand, gave me $2000, which goes very far because of their low cost for tuition. And I have been accepted to that school, so the decision was quite easy. So there you have it folks, I'm going to Morehead State University. And besides, I know the saxophone professor a lot better than UT; I've played for Gene Norden for the past 4 years, so that makes me happy. Also, Ryan and Marc will be going there with me, so that's another plus. Well, I'm off to do some music theory and talk to people. Later.